Friday, May 14
I really think I love my boy too much.. but does he?
Today I saw my ex making a blog for his girlfriend again..and I got this feeling again, jealous.. because he didn't even is like that when he is with me..
while with him? he is someone who doesn't know romance even love! he is even worse.
now he learned how to say i love you.. i really do wanna marry him..
my ex? he didn't even say i love you once! i can even count how many times he said it, and i should even force him to say that..but he really do know what romantic is.. you don't need to give me flowers, but you can give me bears. you don't need to say i love you, but you can give me attention... I know he loves me so much and really do cares about me, but.. why do i always feel he is not paying much attention to me? or he is just not the person? I'm really getting sick of this long distance relationship. I really doubt that it can stay long.. but i really do want to spend the rest of my life with him.. but why do i sometimes not believe in him, and sometimes feeling unsecure.. what's happening to me? where have all the trust gone? i really wanna make things work with us babe..
today you was too busy that you didn't even search for me.. you say you was in a meeting so i didn't disturb, i waited till 12, and there is still no sign of you.. sometimes i really feel to ignore you, but why can't i? i am always the one calling and searching for you for every 2 hours.
what happening to the tough me? i really hate love! So I finally message him again, and guess what did he say...
like always, he said sorry.. shit. that's what i wanna hear! but,, that's just not enough! he say he was busy cleaning his room.. i asked him why didn't he tell me, he say that he need to do a lot of things.. who knows man! r u kissing someone right now or something like that! I really don't know what to do.. days by days passed, you changed, and my trust sallow.....